2012 Feast of the Assumption, St Mary’s Malaga N.J.
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Yet another horrific shooting. It’s hard to keep off the news feeds for each bit of new information we learn of the perpetrator and his victims. It’s natural to want to understand. If we do finally learn of a motivation behind James Holmes’s actions, it will probably be more the trigger that set him off — the straw that broke the camel’s back, perhaps, or the dangerous obsession that’s informed his world of late.
A few years ago there was a fellow from a nearby town who declared himself the grand wizard of his own branch of the Klu Klux Klan. He would announce plans for a march a local town and instantly the media would be racing their news vans there to get reactions from politicians, police chiefs and random people on the street. Headlines would ensue, bloggers would go to work, counter-protests would be announced, etc. But the grand wizard turned out to be mostly an Oz-like apparition of smoke. No established KKK organization recognized him. His rallies would attract at most two of his buddies. He was in his early forties and living with his mother. He was fired after three weeks working at Wawa, the local convenience store chain. Yes, he could have been a danger if he had gotten a hold of a cache of guns but he never did. He was a guy who was a loser at everything except getting media attention for outrageous proposal. Last I looked up he’s got religion, recanted his racist ideology, and apologized for the KKK talk.
Another story I could tell is more personal, of a not-so-distant relative who went on a middling-murder spree — five dead in the end (I’ll omit details for reasons of family diplomacy). I only met him once but I’ve come to know the setting that shaped him. Some of the issues that shaped him go back generations and are still active. To tell the story of his snap would take a novel on the order of Jeffrey Eugendies’s Middlesex. I have an autistic son and know that this condition runs in the family. I try to imagine throwing him into a mainstream school setting with no support and no diagnosis, and then bringing him up in the family tradition of alcohol-based self-medication; a stint on the armed forces would just add to the explosive mix. Forty years from now my precious little boy might well be the top story on Action News. And it would be a tragedy.
If I had a time machine, I think I’d do experiments to understand the nexus of ideology and individual personality. I’d give a 24-year-old Osama bin Laden a desk job in an obscure Saudi ministry, and an 18-year-old Adolf Hitler a prize to a prestigious foreign art school.
Violent ideologies are often the perverted manifestation of less-visible personal and family tragedies. I hope we can find a way to step back from the voyeurism of Colorado details to find ways to extend ourselves in love and care. Tonight, when you feel rage or indignation, call up a friend or relative in pain. Yes, gun control can help lesson the immediate tragedy. But let’s not forget the long-term solutions. Think about how we lobby to widen access to medical care (e.g.: universal healthcare) and programs for the needy of our youth (hint: fund the schools, expand special-needs programs, bring back after-school programs and enrichment opportunties). There are three- and six-and eighteen-year-old’s out there teetering on crossroads of alternate futures. Let’s hold out our hands and invite them to paths of healing and love.
After Heart of Darkness I thought I’d try another book by Conrad. The choice was made easy by the Wikipedia entry for Nostromo, which quotes F. Scott Fitzgerald as saying “I’d rather have written Nostromo than any other novel.”
Six weeks later, and I’m only a quarter of the way through. I’m dropping this book. I won’t say that the book’s first quarter is completely uninteresting. Its picture of a troubled South America country and the way its internationally-focused upper class tries to act as a reform movement drew me in, but only so far. At this point the novel is still just a thinly-cloaked history lesson with broadly-drawn caricatures that have failed to become characters.
Let me be honest: I want some drama. I want someone to betray the emotional expectations of their assigned role. Can’t somebody (anybody?!) kiss the wrong lips, betray the wrong fighter, or at least have a crisis of faith in their God, life’s work, or politics?
I do believe the action gets saucier later on. But I’m too confused by the political actors of Costaguana (“who’s Avellinos again?”) to care. I can check the Wikipedia pages on Venezuela and Colombia to see how the politcal drama plays out. Whatever personal drama there is will have to be Fitzgerald’s.
In America today our sense of spiritual fellowship in Liberal meetings, the feeling of belonging to the same tribe, is diminishing. We no longer live in the same communities, and we come from diverse faith traditions. Our cultural values are no longer entwined at the roots, as were those of our founders. As a body we share less genetic and cultural memory of what it means to be Quakers. Different viewpoints often prevent us from looking in the same direction to find a point of convergence. We hold beliefs ranging from Buddhism to non-theism to Christianity, or we may simply be ethical humanists. Just imagine a mixture of wild seeds cast into a single plot of land, producing a profusion of color. A wide variety of plants all blooming together symbolize our present condition in the Religious Society of Friends. Discerning which is a wildflower and which is a weed is not easy. We are living a great experiment of religious diversity.
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The first photo on the web photo turns 20 next Wednesday and its story is more interesting that you’d think:
The first photographic image ever uploaded to the Web was a Photoshop disaster. It was created to sell something, and featured attractive women in a come-hither pose. In short, photo-uploading was born with some original sins that have never quite washed away.
Bonus Youtube: Les Horribles Cernettes perform “Collider”
Earlier this week I wondered if it might not be such a bad idea if some of our struggling established meetings experimented with the house church model. An commenter maps out the difficulties:
Speaking as a “meeting planter” (our small Friends meeting here was founded two years ago by me and one other Friend), I can tell you without reservation that, while we could meet in people’s homes, it would strictly limit the ability to reach out with our message and attract others to participate. You can pretty well be certain that only those who already feel comfortable with you will come back to someone’s home, which may not include the seekers who really are looking for something they can be part of.
I have seen this with other churches as well; the local UU fellowship grew from ten to 15 people in the 5 years that they met in living rooms; they grew from 30 to 60 in two years when they had their own meetinghouse.
I am trying hard to raise the money to allow us to purchase and maintain an appropriate building for a meetinghouse. Until we do, our Meeting will continue to hide its light under a bushel, despite all our efforts to the contrary. The desire to have a “home” is deep within the human heart, whether it is where we reside or where we worship.
The commenter was anonymous (update: no, he’s not, it’s Bruce Arnold of Letters from the Street) but I’d love to hear more. I wonder particularly of there’s a zone of difficult viability when the worship community it’s too small to support a building structure and need to pick a bigger-or smaller model for long-term viability.
They default to the same boring tropes, says Amy Levin at TheRevealer:
Religious wars, religious dress, religious money – these are the real and yet superbly complex elements of our cultural existence. Scout any crack or cranny of popular culture and you find religion creating a glorious maze of topics for writers to discover and sift and sing to the masses.
But lately, I find that a repulsive plague of repetition and banality has swept over the disenchanted cybersphere. Each day I begin my religion news search with hopeful eagerness, sifting closely through mainstream and fringe outlets, hungry for signs of a new trend, movement, argument, study – anything other than what I consumed the day before. But I search in vain, and my doldrums have led me to take action.
(H/T to David Watt on Facebook)
Apparently Micah Bales wasn’t calling for twenty-something Friends to engage in a reign of terror, of kerosene and matches. He was engaging in something called he calls metaphor. Micah reminds us that the living church needs to be able to ask questions:
A living, breathing community cannot be perfect in this sense. True life is found in dynamic tension. Living communities change and grow; they reproduce themselves in a diverse array of shapes and sizes, suited to their own times and places.
I myself would have avoided the burn-baby-burn pose, even rhetorically, if only because I’ve had too much personal experience of Quakers who completely lack a sense of irony. But it’s certainly not without precedent for Friends to challenge our connection to material space (Micah aint’ got nothing on Benjamin Lay!). This critique is why we call them meetinghouses, not churches, and it’s why their most prominent architectural style in the Delaware Valley resembles nothing so much as a barn – the most generic of open structures in the eyes of the farmers who built them.
There have been some good reactions among the commentaries on Micah’s post. Isabel P. wrote from the perspective of a “spiritual vagabond”:
For those of us with no meetinghouses, who wander from place to place trying to find a home for our worship groups, this sort of hyperbole (metaphor though it may be) is just painful. Is tradition and heritage really such an awful weight? Try being a spiritual vagabond …
Elsewhere, Mackenzie paints the picture of a not-atypical wealthy East Coast meeting that focuses on structure:
The meeting room is larger than needed for how few people show up weekly (about 70 on a “good” day, while the room can hold about 250). The campus is larger than the participants are willing to put in the sweat equity to maintain. You’d think working together to maintain it would go under the category of building community, which our First Day School claims is a testimony. Instead, the budget must be ever-expanded to hire someone else to fix things up, rather than have anyone get their hands dirty. Never mind that the meeting is running on endowments from long-dead Friends as it is. So much paid maintenance puts a strain on the budget, making for persistent calls for more money.
Further down in that same thread, Tricia shares the heartfelt thank-you notes of Philadelphia-area Occupy activists who found refuge in Quaker structures:
Dearest Quaker Friends, Thank you for harboring us in a safe place in your parking lot. We appreciate it, in solidarity — the 99%.
I’m so grateful that you opened your hearts and your space to us. (catastrophe averted!) I want to be a Quaker. Love and Peace, Barbara.
There have also been some obnoxious reactions, all too-typical dismissals citing some supposedly-inherent inability of younger Friends to be trusted in discernment or leadership. Of course our own tradition proves this wrong. When we talk about Quaker theology, the starting point for Friends of all flavors is an essay written by a twenty-eight year old. When George Fox had his famous opening that “there is one, even Christ Jesus, who can speak to thy condition,” he was a twenty-three years old talking about a son-of-God that never left what Friends would call his “young adult” years. William Penn co-founded his first Quaker colony at age 33, and even old Margaret Fell earned her nickname “the mother of Quakerism” for the organizing work she began at age thirty-eight. By counter-example, I’m sure we find some older Friends who lack something in the discernment or self-control department. The moral of the examples: age is not the most important factor in Quaker spiritual discernment.
Now I want to turn back to the meetinghouse question and put things in a bit of perspective. There are probably only five or six dozen unprogrammed meetings in North America that are so large they couldn’t simply squeeze into the nearest volunteer fire hall. If calamity struck the meetinghouse, the great majority of our congregations could take a quick phone poll of members to determine who has the largest living room and relocate there the following First Day. Yes, of course it’s nice to provide space to the occasional protesters (and local yoga group, battered women’s shelter etc.), but it’s fair to ask if this is what we’re called to do with this time and money. There would be certain opportunities gained if a monthly meeting sold or long-term leased its property and re-established itself as a network of house churches. I don’t think it’s necessarily a good option for most meetings but it would be an intriguing experiment. And it’s definitely worth imagining.